March 21st, 2011 by Marianne
I Googled myself today. I do it every once in a blue moon, and I’m glad that I did because I found this. It’s an article about me that was published in Positive Thinking Magazine in 2007.
As I mentioned in my previous post, ever since coming home from D.C. last week, my blood sugars have been all over the map. Mostly high, but I did wake up this morning with a low - which is frustrating when all you want to do is sleep in on a weekend. Instead, I dragged myself out of bed, listening to the rapid beating of my heart pounding in my ears, got my glucometer, confirmed my low (57), popped four glucose tablets in my mouth and went back to sleep.
My day hasn’t gotten much better. It has been a real drag with the constant rain, dealing with paperwork, and what seems to me the most overwhelming of all - choosing my health care team. My husband recently started a new job (which we’re both excited about!), but what I’m not excited about is changing our health insurance all over again. Navigating the health care system is so stressful to me, and although I know this will change with Obama’s Health Care Bill, I couldn’t help but smirk when I read the “pre-existing condition” clause. The fact that a clause like this could ever exist is so disheartening. It reinforces the belief to me that there’s nothing caring at all about our “health care” system.
Anyway, it’s so easy to dwell on the negative and let that bring me down, but as I revisit this article from 2007, I’m reminded of my own wise words that: “changing my attitude can change my life.”
P.S. My husband just came home and brought me flowers. There may be hope for this day after all!